This week’s intention:
Observe what is happening.
Where’s my head at this moment?
I’m standing in front of the apartment's front door, leaning against the cabinets, watching this morning’s rainstorm finally begin to settle. The tops of the mountains are peaking out from the clouds illuminated by the sun as if the background was painted. Patches of blue sky pop out in the corners. The dense fog is moving quickly and a yellow-throated Euphonia just landed on the wires in the entryway. I have so much to learn about the local flora and fauna. And in Spanish.
I’m still trying to find my rhythm. How can I say that with more grace; I’m continuing to tune into the rhythm of my day. I’m not frustrated with myself. I’m not feeling annoyed. I’m more patient and more understanding. I acknowledge that this transition requires agility. But I also recognize the extra push I’m trying to give myself to be ok with it. The push is just coffee but we’ll manage caffeine intake at a later time. I’m kinder to myself these days. But I’d be lying if I didn’t admit how much effort it takes to recognize and work through the deeply rooted expectations that have been instilled in me. And how handling them with more softness is a daily practice.
Things appear much more fluid in retrospect, so I catch myself thinking, “what am I rushing toward?” I go through personal syncs throughout the day where I’m asking myself what I need. And what do I want? What don’t I want? How do I want to feel? What do I feel inclined to create? How does my body feel? How can I take care of myself today? What do I want to learn? Am I taking steps to contribute towards any goals I have set out for myself?
I moved to a new country, moved in with my former long-distance partner, and am operating in a different language, all with my 60+ pound rescue dog. It’s only been two weeks. Tranqui Mae.*
*Mae, pronounced like “Mai” in “Mai Tai,” is a Costa Rican word equivalent to “bro”, or “dude” that is used excessively.
Highlight:
Friday morning beach walk with Luna and my boo in Manuel Antonio. We’re learning how we want to commit to our quality time and sunrise walks are a contender for a weekly activity.
Win(s) of the Week:
Watching the sunset (without clouds or rain!) for the first time since coming back 2 weeks ago. I’m excited about the sunsets we’ll get to watch during the upcoming dry season/summer!
Fam beach day and lunch at a favorite restaurant, Langosta Feliz. Like I said in last week’s Tingle, the fresh Mahi is immaculate and best served with a cold Imperial (hold the ice).
Having access to the freshest coconut water cracked and cut in front of me, served straight up.
Shout out (to):
Luna
She may be experiencing even more drastic effects of the transition but I can tell that she is adapting, calmer, and is still receptive to my direction. Aside from being impressed, I’m also relieved that she too has welcomed new members into her circle. She grounds me even if she is also the culprit of temporary distress. Thank you for trusting me. Her puppy eyes do not negate the fact that she is also currently (lovingly) referred to as La Toxica.
Listen(ing) to this:
Dale Dancehall (Mix) - DJ Brown
Instagram led me to find this and I am wondering if I want to go out Saturday night, tropical style. I’m a slut for Major Lazer and what can I say, I’m feeling like I’m 22 again.
Side Bar
Stay tuned for another personal project involving a language learning circle. Bi-weekly hourly working sessions open to anyone of any level who may wish to connect for accountability. I’m setting the intention to do some focus power hours on this project and hope to have details by next week!
In the meantime, if you have any goals or needs you’re open to sharing with me about them, I’d love to hear them! Ultimately, even though this is still intended to be an independent study, I’m curious as to what access, expectations, and motivation are needed in the community! Feel free to e-mail me: calmthyme@gmail.com or DM me on IG @martachecko.